It’s Moving Time

I'm so grateful to all of you for reading my words for the past few years. I have loved writing for you in this space. A lot of things have happened in the past year and pretty much everything in my life has changed. That is not all bad, but it does mean that this space feels awkward for me moving forward. And moving forward is something that I am determined to do. To that end, I'm closing up shop here. I'm not deleting this blog, but I'm not going to be posting here. I'm also not going to quit writing. It is something that energizes me, and I'm going to keep doing it. Perhaps not with the frequency that I was writing here, but still writing. If you'd like to continue to read what I have to say, you can check out my new blog here. I would love to see you there. Again, thank … [Read more...]

The Deception

Snow falls gently covering the ground one crystal at a time. We see a fresh blanket of snow and we are reminded of beauty, of innocence, of forgiveness, of uniqueness. But this is not all that is there. To see only this ignores a man shivering in its cold. a family left homeless from the roof cave-in. a motorist abandoned on her way home. In that blanket of snow exists frigidity, destruction, weight, loss. One truth does not negate the other. But choosing to see only one side is to see a deception. … [Read more...]

The Scarlet A(lise)

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When you drop off of the blogosphere for 4 months after 8 years of pretty consistent blogging, it’s usually an indication that something is amiss. Possibly something absolutely amazing is happening, but usually it’s not good. My absence was due to something not good. It’s all very confusing and hard to write about, which is why I went mostly silent all over the internet. But I don’t feel like I can move on without letting you know what’s been happening. In September, I moved out of my house because I became romantically involved with my best friend Rich. I genuinely did not see that as a possibility and prior to that time, nothing romantic had ever happened between us, but due to changes that occurred in our relationship coupled with realizations I had about my marriage to Jason, … [Read more...]

The Mountaintop Experience

Today I'm writing over at A Deeper Family. This is the first time I think I've ever written an extended piece about my time in my family singing group. I KNOW. Fridays in April and May were busy for my family growing up. My sisters and I would get home from one school, my dad from the high school where he worked, and my mom from the nursing home where she worked. We would change out of school and work clothes and into something a little bit dressier. If we had time, mom would curl our hair. We would load into our tan and maroon conversion van with speakers and microphones and tape decks and head out to one church or another for a covered-dish mother-daughter banquet. Because my family was The Mountaintop Experience. You'll have to click here to read the rest. And I promise, you want … [Read more...]

Buried

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(Last Thursday I went to the Mumford & Sons concert. It was amazing and I'm still working through some of what it brought up. This is a bit of my processing here.) These days, the pain that I experienced stays buried, like a poisonous treasure, waiting to eat through the protective covering to bring sickness and death. It doesn't hurt like it did, when it was fresh and oozed into every crack and crevice of my life. In those days, it was impossible to ignore, impossible to avoid. So I scrubbed and cleaned and purged. I waded through the disease to find health. I didn't cure it, but I contained it. I covered it. And when I did, I buried other things. Value. Worth. Use. And then. A man with a guitar steps on a stage. He sings a song whose words I … [Read more...]

In the Church, but not of it

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My favorite presentation while I was at Wild Goose was hosted by Jared Byas with Levi Weaver. They spoke on spiritual creativity, and as someone who fancies herself a bit of a creative, I was interested to hear their thoughts on that issue. Jared’s talk and Levi’s performance were amazing, but one of the things that really struck me about them was that they both said that we had to get beyond cynicism if we wanted to create. They did not suggest that we could not experience seasons as a critic, but cautioned against setting up camp there because it is nearly impossible to create from that space because it can be just as limiting as the things that we’re cynical about. If we constantly put ourselves in the position of critic, the ability to see beauty diminishes and with it, the ability … [Read more...]

Stuff I’ve Been Reading

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Hello friends! So nice of you to drop by for a while during your weekend. Here are some of my favorite things from this week. I hope they will help start some interesting conversations. I love Emily Maynard's writing, and her piece at A Deeper Story this week just knocked it out of the park. I want to be more and more aware of the way that we use language in church to potential ostracize people, even unintentionally, and Emily brought up one way that we do that to singles. This is an important post. My friend Ed Czyewski wrote an incredibly thought-provoking post about what we do when we don't agree AT ALL with other people who share the same faith. I'm still chewing on his words. Jessica Bowman wrote a poignant post about apologizing. This is a difficult read, but oh, so … [Read more...]

Your Gagging Isn’t Loving

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Last night I had to take some deep breaths after reading the internet. My friend Stephanie linked to this post by Thabiti Anyabwile and my initial response was just a blind rage. I have long thought that one of the primary objections to marriage equality is the "ick" factor, but I never thought I'd see a group like The Gospel Coalition put that forth as a valid argument against it. The post is terrible. And other people who are much smarter than I am are going to talk about why it's terrible. But in the tweet storm that erupted last night, there was one that stood out to me. From Joe Carter, one of the editors at TGC: @NishWeiseth We love our neighbor when we tell them the truth about sin. Lying about it being okay to stay popular is not love. — Joe Carter (@joecarter) August 22, … [Read more...]

7 Billion Paths to God

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The first time I really experienced God in a way that was all mine, I was at a Christian music festival. I was listening to a speaker talk about his relationship with his dad and for the first time, everything that I had been talking about and thinking about for my whole life just clicked. The questions that had been floating around in my head suddenly made sense. I didn’t doubt my salvation before, but on that day, it became real. I'm sure I could look at that event and figure out what it was about it that worked for me. Why, after years of church attendance, the gospel story finally resonated in a way that it never had before. Maybe it was because instead of simple expository preaching, the speaker used more story-telling. Maybe it was because of being inside a man-made edifice, we … [Read more...]

Stuff I’ve Been Reading

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  Hello! Lovely to meet up with you again this week. I've got some goodies for you, so let's get to it! Rachel Held Evans absolutely wrote my heart with this post about hating her brand. This is a crazy honest post. And I want to be better about remembering that part of celebrity (even really minor celebrity) is that we don't see the whole person. I loved this post by Leigh Kramer about making the choice to lop off all of her hair. She is an amazing woman and I love how fearless she is. Fantastic reflection about the election of Elizabeth Eaton as the Presiding Bishop for the ELCA by Nadia Bolz-Weber. I remember preaching for hours on tape when I was very young, and being told that no, girls couldn't do that. So yeah, this is big stuff. I'm doing a new podcast with Knox … [Read more...]