Today is my day over at A Deeper Family. Honestly, I didn’t think I was going to be able to get a post together for today. There has been a lot going on in my family of origin over the past month, and not much of it has been good. Honestly, a lot of it has been downright awful. I’m usually a big fan of Easter, but this year…it was hard. It felt a lot more of Friday than of Sunday. I think it might just be that way for a while.
Right now I’m just working on sorting through that. This post is only the very beginning of that work.
And when so much hurt and pain swirls around me, I just want to drink too much and swear too loudly and wish it would just go away. Go away and never, ever, ever come back.
I know that in the coming days and months, people will offer words of encouragement that sound hollow to me. I know that some will offer to pray with me when all I want to do is shake my fist at the heaven. I know that there will be Bible verses quoted at me when all I want is to listen to the angry words in my brain. I know that some will call everything healed already, in Jesus’s name, while I can see only misery and anguish.
I’d love it if you’d stop by A Deeper Family to give the rest a read. And if you’re so inclined, please say a prayer for my family. Thank you, friends.